Kiki Kannibal

People think I should be doing so much more with my life, or at least the ones that think I am talented do...well, there's 24 hours in the day, and I have to sleep sometime so let me tell you how I divide my days and what I do. 

I have four college classes and the algebra one kicks my ass.  I know it's no biggie and actually fun for those of you who love math, but for me it's torture.  My teacher is a converted muslim, and she rocks, and she likes me, so she seems willing to help me a lot. She told me in the bathroom the other day that little kids always wonder what she is wearing under the scarf.  I thought that was so cute. I love kids. Okay, off on tangent, back to subjects:

Humanities class- this friday I am going to go catch feral cats for the humane society.  We catch them, they get nuetered or spayed, and then they let them go again.  I am doing this for extra credit for my  humanities class

Speech class- teacher cancelled yesterday.  She was crying and had to leave.  It just goes to show that everyone's human and has problems here and there.  I received an "A" for my "Cyberbullying Speech".  Thanks haters.

English-I have a great teacher.  My poetry is actually pretty good, and I can whip out a creative story in no time.  Still, there is a lot of work to be done.

The days I don't go to school, I work on my business.  I just had a meeting in Orlando with a guy that really knows his stuff for my t-shirts.  He's accurate, smart, quick, and understands what I am asking for.  Finally, a solution to my shitty last supplier has come!  Thanks universe!

My free time is spent talking to and camming with mah boyfrand.  We have been together since June and against all odds, we are still together.  He just got a light blue diamond tattoo on his bicep, and I think it's really cute.  This time around a guy getting a tattoo for me doesn't bother me because I know he's not psycho. ;].

What's your daily schedule look like?

Hey,

Have you guys ever seen Oli when he does his "spit" thing on stage?  Well, you know I am okay with spitting when it's a controlled substance, but when you hoark a loogie the size of a pancake, and it fucking sticks to you, then you know you are in trouble.  I saw mah man Oli hoark a load the other day here in Orlando, and the poor bastard couldn't get that shit off his shit.  I thought, "You could fucking make a pancake with that shit; it was so HUGE".  I found his performance this year was not anywhere near as good as last year, BUT, the loogie took the night and made it all worth it.  I still laugh about it when I think about it.  thanks Oli!

I just saw one, and it made me think of the bert's bots or whatever they are jelly bellies.   My sister and I put them in a bowl and left them on the living room coffee table.  For a couple of days my Grandma went in and took handfulls of them and chompped them down.  I think it was on the third day that she mentioned that the jelly bellies didn't taste right...that something might be wrong with them.  Koti and I busted out laughing so hard.  She randomly ate handfuls of them and finally figured out that they were really gross!  Have you ever tried them with your friends?  When they first came out and people didn't know about it, it was so funny to watch them eat 'em. 

Oh what is your favorite jelly belly?  I'd use that little chart and mix them up.  I hate buttered popcorn, but some people really like that shit.

Yeah,

I still call her, "Momma" , and yeah she did piss me off the other day really bad.  I wasn't feeling well anyway, full moon plus moses,  you get the picture.  I  really like my boyfriend, and yeah, he's older, but I realized she was right about some stuff.  At the time, things were too heated, and I was blind in love like an 80 year old blind man.  I'm that blind when it comes to love.
So, anyway, I said some things that weren't true out of anger towards her, and I wanted you guys to know that she was right, and I was wrong. 

She doesn't live through me either.  She just wants to keep me safe, and she supports my dreams whatever they are.  She actually hates, I mean really hates all this internet stuff.  She lets me stay on mainly because we both agree that bullies aren't going to determine my internet use.  It's a justice thing more than anything.  In fact my mom wants nothing to do with fame otherwise you would be seeing her face, etc.  Her whole thing is trying to keep me straight so I can reach my goals and make my dreams come true.  If I wanted to be a zoologist or dentist, she would support me there too.  The thing with being "live" and having her speak is that we live together in the same house. I am still young, and my mom and I talk about a lot of stuff.  You are going to hear my family talk from time to time.

So, I had a blow-up over her trying to protect me.  She only got involved in certain situations because of what happened in the past and how traumatic it was for my entire family.  I didn't  mention that though because not only did she piss me off, there were some other factors at play, and they all came down crashing at once. I have met one serious nut case and a couple of really cruel guys so my "momma" is more of a "momma bear" now. 

 I love my "Momma", and I told her I was sorry and she told me she was sorry, and it's all good!

So, you see me hanging out there with all my shit flying in the wind.  What about you guys?  What goes on behind closed doors at your house?  hahaha.  Do your parents piss you off too sometimes?  Do they care who you date? 

I am international!  hahahah
I am:

German, Polish, Dutch, English, Irish, Scottish, Welsh, and French.  My family kept a pretty damn good family tree so I know where my ancestors came from.

I have sold my jewelry to:

Pretty much all of Usa
Canada
Poland
Germany
Austria
Switzerland
Scotland
Ireland
France
Malta
Italy
Puerto Rico
Mexico
Argentina
Brazil
Australia
China
England
Wales
Netherlands-Holland and Denmark
Norway
and there some others I can't remember.  I'll update after I go back and check! ;]
- I love you all for ordering and wearing my stuff proudly!!!

My main focus lately has been school, school and more school.  I have been getting 90's on all of my papers and exams so I am doing really well this semester.  It takes a lot of time though, and I would love to be working on my music, but I just haven't had the time.  In the future....in the future....

I was just watching this show "How it's made", and I just had to write this.  They were doing a segment on how fur coats are made.  There's a lot that goes into them.  They were showing how they can be dyed and that patterns can be cut into them, and all the stages it goes through, EXCEPT, they didn't show the captive beavers or little foxes or minks in tiny, dirty cages with sometime open gaping wounds.  They didn't show how they are electrocuted or how they are killed. They didn't show any of that.  I remember when I was little we had a fur stuffed animal, and I loved that thing.  IT was a kitty.  I had NO IDEA it was rabbit fur or what went into it.  I really do like the feel of fur.  It's soft and warm, but it belongs on the animal.  Until I found out what happens to the animals and how they live and how they die, I just didn't know fur was so disgusting.  I wonder if the companies put a tag on the coat of the slaughtered animal and a link to a website showing the deaths of the animals if they would sell as much.  After all, I think the animal should get credit for being the raw materials.  I wish more people cared. People can be so blind.

I think the show should have shown the reality of what fur is since it is a "how it's made" show.  I think people are mislead by how a fur coat feels and what it looks like.  I think if people really knew, I mean really knew, I don't think most people would even consider wearing fur.  I will admit that some of the styles look really cool, but in reality they are just capes of dead, suffering animals.  gross.

oh the highlight of my night ...a few days ago, koti cut a pumpkin up really creatively for halloween.  Tonight I went to pick it up, and it was mush and the bottom fell out all over me.  That thing rotted FAST, but then again, everything in Florida does,   It stunk too, but it was so cool. ;p 

Hiya,

I gets lots of compliments on my eyes and so does Koti.  What people think is lots of make-up making them pretty isn't really the entire truth.  I think what makes my eyes pretty is the fact that I am a vegetarian.  I think more light shines through them and they are clearer than a lot of hard core meat eaters.  I am not bashing you for eating meat.  I'm just saying that if you won't consider being one for the animals which is the ONLY reason I became one, then become one because it will make your eyes shine.  I am going to eventually go vegan like koti.  I like my cheese, hahaha, but i try to get it from sources I KNOW are nice to their animals..

 Someone told me in my live the other day that the people that kill themselves over it would have done it anyway.  I told them that I didn't agree with it because many of these people are kids and not fully developed.  Maybe they have a shitty home life, are getting bullied at school too, and the bullies follow them to the mall and harass them all over the place.  In a moment of extreme pain, they off themselves.  If they weren't pushed to the wall, they could probably survive one or two really bad things in their lives, but when the bullies put in the final nail, it's just too much.  People can bully another human to death.  It's already happened, and it's sick.  

http://www.buzznet.com/groups/polaroidhalloweencontest/photos/?id=60762841

You can only submit one so I sent Koti's in since she forgot her junk.  Give her some love!  hahaha, yeah, and put up your old halloween pics too.

What are you going to be for halloween this year?  I'm going to be a zombie nurse or somthing like that only because I have stuff that works for it from the rave days pssshhhh.....I'm wondering if I am getting too old for this shit.  Which leads me to ask how old is too old to dress up for halloween and how old is too old to go trick or treating?   

There's so so much I want to say about it, but I can't say as much as I want to right now.

I will say to those who are striving for it....Be Careful what you wish for.

You really have to grow a thick skin and learn that haters hurt themselves the most.  Know that when someone is repeatedly attacking you, it's a reflection of something screwy that's going on in him or herself.  You are like a mirror.

I know Florida just passed a cyber bully law in June 2008.  I also learned from my Humanities teacher that if an over 21 year old cyber bullys a minor that he or she can spend up to five years in jail. 

If you do get e-famous realize:   You are going to end up seeing the darkest side of people, and it's going to make you wonder how the hell are people even surviving being able to be so hateful.  You will be hated just for having something someone else wants.   You will learn it's a crazy world out there, and you will learn to be responsible for yourself, maybe the hardest way possible.  Hopefully, the road will make you stronger and be more like a mirror sending it back and never letting it sink in.

There were times I thought about packing it in, but then I learned a really hard lesson early on.  I learned to know my inner strength.  I learned that when someone attacts you that it is really his or her own problem and not yours.  I learned that in the hardest of times, that you can still rise above and move forward and keep creating...no matter what....I learned about my own treasure inside and the sugar is REAL,  Think about it...how is a diamond formed?  Just don't take this e-crap so seriously and don't let some creep behind a keyboard ruin you.  You will always be better than the creep behind the keyboard.  ALWAYS!  like a diamond! ;]

xoxo

mkay, my paramore pup loves having his coat dyed.  I have used special effects 4-eva, and it has NEVER burned my scalp.  My puppy has a light coat, and I would NEVER bleach his hair first.  I dyed it orange for Halloween, and then we painted flames on his back.  Pippin loves to be pampered.  He actually likes to be dried and brushed.  He doesn't view it as cruel and neither do I so just stop with the "I am abusing my dog" stuff.

Oh, and to the jerk who tried to fake panasonic youth with that nasty e-mail to me, you know where you can put it.  Mark has left me alone and has actually been helpful in certain eh-emm situations, so quit trying to create drama.  I don't fall for that crap as easily as I used to .

If you have a dog with a light coat or light tail there's nothing wrong with making it a little colorful.  It's not like a cat that licks so I say it's a-okay. Do it.

 

Hey,

 

I haven't posted in awhile.  School is lots of work.  I had to switch around a class because the teacher was a ma-a-ayjor jerk!  Yeah, I learned about being able to withdraw in college, and I wished I had used it with the teacher last semester who was always talking about how much sex she was getting.  She was really unprofessional and tried to be buddies with all the students.  I did extra credit, and she still gave me a shitty grade.  I think it might have had something to do with me talking about her in my Stickam last year.  Someone told her about it.  I wasn't saying anything bad.  It was just the facts about what she talked about in class.  

So this year, I get a teacher who made fun of my name, and repeatedly told the class, "My other class is my favorite class."  What kind of shit talk is that?  I mean, come on really!   These are supposed to be professionals that are getting paid to be professional professors.  Why do I get the part time loser bitches that are messed in the head???

When I told her my name because she couldn't pronounce my birth name, she replied, "What is that?..The name of a bird or something?"  Of course the whole class laughed.  I was thinking, "Here we go!"

I had an experience last year where my math teacher pulled me into his office and said, "I think you act a lot dumber than you really are".  I was creeped out by it and was looking at the stapler in case he made a move on me.

I don't know if it's the blond hair or the fact that I'm tiny that makes people think they can say whatever the hell they want to me, but I get that kind of crap a lot.

After having the school dean in the department defend that shitty behavior, my mom called the President of the college.  The secretary was really nice and was able to work with getting me into another class that was already full.  The secretary told my mom some experiences with teachers she had at the college, and basically told my mom that's why she prefers online classes.  Whoa!  Yeah, I guess that says A LOT. 

After changing classes, everything is working out like silk.  It's hard work and time consuming, but my teachers are good, and there's no shitty drama coming from them.  It's weird thinking that adults create that crap too especially teachers.

Okay, for the t-shirts....Koti has done almost 30 designs which are so, so g-damn cool. I direct, and she executes, but she comes up with really cool shit too.  The shirts came in WAY too big.  I was like Holy shit a "s" is like a "l".  These were American Apparel.  I'm still using AA, but I had to return many sizes which cost me a hefty restocking fee, and because Koti has tons of colors, there is only one type of printing we can do, at least as far as I have been told.

I am getting a couple this weekend. Yep, do you believe it?  One of the things I have learned in business is that time tables may have to be adjusted and readjusted.  It's frustrating when you envision one thing, and then things don't always work out that way.  I am usually really good at dreaming, getting it exactly like I have seen it, and getting it out there.  Clothing has been a different ball game for me.  This is a start.  I love the t-shirts, and I love the designs.  I hope you guys find them unusual with that hint of bam!   

Omg, yeah, and Sept 18th was my b-day.  I mentioned it, but I actually feel embarrassed to advertise it a lot or ask for stuff.  I don't know why.  It feels weird to ask for some reason, but I did say I wanted a car.  I didn't get one, but I did get lots of stuff I did want so it's chill.  I spent the day at Clearwater beach and had the best Thai food eva!  I love good thai and the Thailand people are pretty damn nice.  Sticky rice rules! 

 

Was funny as f$%^

 

If Koti and  I were to write a script when we were older, it would have a lot of the same kind of humor in it.  The interactions in the movie between the three "friends" were really really funny.  I didn't know what to expect at first, but it turned out to be a movie that was worth seeing, besides the drug dealer actor was pretty hot. ;]

If you haven't seen it, go see it!  You'll laugh.

 

 

 

 

 

 

To the people who are twisting my words...

There are some who are commenting that now I am making fun of people with disabilities.  FYI, I am NOT making fun of people with disabilities.  I have seen first hand the suffering and cruelty some people with disabilities face.  My previous post was not about making fun of that kid.

I just wanted to make that clear. ;]

XOXO

 

Wednesday night I was watching MTV, and it had a segment on deaf kids.  There was this kid on there named Chris that I thought was cute. Thursday night in my live I happen to mention that I thought this kid was cute and mentioned the show and him being deaf.  All hell breaks loose when is fruit loop gf comes into my room and starts bitching me out.  I told her I didn't believe she was his girlfriend.  So what happens next?....this deaf kid Chris gets on and get his panties in a knot.  He hits the screen and his gf interprets for him that he doesn't like me.  I see his STickam and he is making an obscene gesture v thingy with his fingers.  It turns out this guy is a little pisser.  He's a bitch.  YEah, I said it, and I don't care if he's deaf. I thought deaf people were nice.  I really did.  It just goes to show you can be an ass with or without a disability.  Here I was giving him a compliment, and they had to turn it into a circus. 

His gf told me I think I could get any guy I want so I licked the screen and told her there, "I licked your boyfriend." She was a complete bitch to me so hey, don't expect sugar in return.  So in the end, it was a weird moment of synchronicity, and I have decided to fight back with finding my own disability man midget on craigs list.  Hell yeah!

Peace

hey,

I am going to go see batman.  I love Heath. 

Death is a weird thing that most people don't think about.  Today, we had to put a cat to sleep.  My sister and my mom found a cat at the buddist church several nights ago.  It limped up to them and started purring.  My mom took it home and then to the vet.  The vet took X-rays.  When she went back to get the cat, the vet made her wait in a room for awhile. The vet came and then said, "It's not an injury.  It's bone cancer."  We didn't know exactly what that meant. It's basically a death sentence and even if you amputate the animal usually doesn't live many years longer.  It was an outside cat ,and a buddist nun had named her "mimi".

The mood in my house was sad today because my mom brought the cat in to be put to sleep.  It was fast though, but I wanted to get her leg removed and still keep her.  She was so loving.  She was such a beautiful cat, and she looked like a cougar.   She was very friendly and had the loudest purr and the sweetest face. It's not fair.

Now,  I am going to go see Batman, and I know at my age that life ends for many things as much as it begins.  I hate it, and I don't understand it.  Heath was just one example and so was Mimi.  Two really sweet souls that this earth doesn't have anymore. 

I have to say I really like them for the most part.  Sometimes it's like having a party in  your room, but no one is trashing your room or your house, and no one is driving home drunk.  If someone in my e-room is getting wasted, I know that the person is probably already at home and won't be killing anyone on the road.

By party, I don't mean getting wasted either.  I mean we all goof around and act like retards American Pie style sometimes, and it's hilarious.  I realize that a lot of you might not like who you go to school with or the kids in the neighborhood, so finding someone you like to e-hang out with on the internet is pretty decent.

I've met actually a lot of people that have my same kind of humor, and we all have a party together.  If you were in my room last night you know what I am talkin' 'bout. :D    Thanks for the laughs.

I wish more people could have parties like that instead of e-drama.  So if your trying to start drama or shit with me, don't bother.  Go find another room where the people are all into that shit.  

How many of you are in relationships that are long lasting and even really faithful?  Do you think sites like Myspace make it easier to cheat?  If yeah, does it make it easier to find out?  When are people gonna get it that people usually ALWAYS find out? 

Yeah, I was in a relationship in RL where I took it slow and didn't give anything up, and I then found out that all these Myspace "REAL SLUTS" were fucking him.  It's funny how I get called a slut when in reality I think girls that randomly fuck guys and especially guys they know are committed are the TRUE SLUTS!  yep.  It's funny how some of those girls would call me a slut too. Don't get me wrong here.  The guy is a complete slut and slut fucker too.

I try to keep any relationship I have off of the internet for reasons like, "OH, you're dating Kiki.  I hate her.  I think I'll fuck her boyfriend" kind of shit.

So this last experience has made me wonder if there are really long lasting faithful unions when younger.  I know there are some, but really how many people that are using internet social sites remain in long term committed relationships?  For weaker, used asswipes, it seems harder for them to navigate and fly faithful with all the fucktards out there and social sites easy access.

Someday I want a relationship with a guy that is funny, hot, sweet, serious about not fucking anyone else, and understands the nature of working towards something really good.  hahaha, that sounds like a resume or something.  Every experience I have just leads me to the one I will really love on all levels.

Right now, I hate that fucker and one thing people should know about me, at this point in my life, when I close a door, I close it really hard, and I don't look back.  So if you are going to be friends with me or more, you should be aware that if you blatantly or not so blatantly fuck with me, I won't tolerate it for very long, and I don't go back.  Forgiving is one thing.  Being a stupid fucker is entirely different.

OH, did I forget to mention what this creep told me he says, "I am going to RUIN you.  I am going to go kill myself now".  Here this fucker cheats on me in RL several times, I get pissed and say "fuck you"; I am never talking to you again" and he pulls the vengence with death crap.  Nope, it's not going to work this time.  You pull that shit with me, and I won't go crying "please don't kill youself; I won't leave".  Been there done that.  I won't be a puppet again.

This is a tell tale sign for you out there.  If your lover is contantly asking you if you cheated with someone from Myspace, maybe it's really that person that is cheating.  This guy recently starting asking me over and over again if I was actually cheating.  The thing is that HE was the one actually cheating.

I recently didn't go on a date with a guy I met at the new Whole Foods.  I had some classes with him.  He's a cutie,but I didn't go.  So, I basically was beng "kept" in one place while my bf was having his "cake and eating it too" kind of thing.  I could have gone on a date with a guy that would have actually taken me out for a change.  hahaha.  Live and learn.  I am done with learning for awhile.  Just want to live ;]

Hey,

I've been really busy lately, and summer hasn't really felt like summer this year. The thing is is when you are working on a business, you have so many little things to consider that take up so much time.  I want to get everything done NOW, but it just doesn't always work that way. 

I am really excited about the tee-shirts coming out.  They are just about to be made.   I know you guys will let me know what you think. hahaha.  The question that it basically came down to was simple, "Would I wear these, and would I ENJOY wearing them.  Hell yeah!  I am just trying to figure out if I should bling them a little here and there.  It makes more work and the tees are really hot on their own. We'll see.

So yeah, my summer has been more work than parties/play.  I did have some time to go shopping the other day, and I found a BJ dress that I really liked.  Betsey is having a buy one get one free sale on dresses where I live so I was able to find something.  I'm not a huge fan of her dresses right now.  They're really cute and sort of 50's-70's style, but it's not for me, BUT  I did find a not so girly black eyelet dress I like.  It's short and not foofy.  I call it my "nightmare before Christmas" dress.  I do love her accessories and bags though.

I found some knitted dresses at this either euro store or south american store.  The name was scribbled in cursive so I don't even know what the place was called.  It's an orange sherbert knitted, fitted dress.  Yeah, orange, and it's knit.  It makes me look like a snake except for a little frill on the bottom.  If you have that "s" curve then it's the cutest dress. I never thought of wearing a knit dress especially in summer, but this one has a racer type back and just fits me right.   I didn't think I would like the orange, but when I saw it on, it actually looked really good.

I didn't do anything spectuuuckular on the fourth this year.  Just watched some getto fireworks in the neighborhood and ate some so-so chinese food. I can't believe it's what, July 8 already.  See you in two days  ;]  

I just got so overwhelmed and didn't finish sending them.  It's not that I looked at your profile and decided not to.  I was trying to send them to everyone that was a real person.  It's just that I got swamped.  Don't take it personally if you didn't get one.  Someday I will get back on it.  I still have all your information. :]

Do you believe it's the end of June practically?? What has everyone been doing this summer?  Does it still feel fresh or are you getting bored? lol!  Do you know what you are doing for the fourth of july?  One year we went to Key West for the 4th.  It was pretty fun.  We rode those moeped(?)  bikes all around town and painted coconuts.  A whole bunch of boats lined up in the ocean while the fireworks went up over the ocean.  I have no idea what we are doing this year. What about you?  Dman this cat.  he keeps jumping up on the keyboard and stepping on it.  I put him down and he jumps right back up.  uggg!  Now he is sitting on my lap wiping his spit on me and dragging his one tooth across my cheek.  gross. his spit stinks.