Kiki Kannibal

hey,

I am going to go see batman.  I love Heath. 

Death is a weird thing that most people don't think about.  Today, we had to put a cat to sleep.  My sister and my mom found a cat at the buddist church several nights ago.  It limped up to them and started purring.  My mom took it home and then to the vet.  The vet took X-rays.  When she went back to get the cat, the vet made her wait in a room for awhile. The vet came and then said, "It's not an injury.  It's bone cancer."  We didn't know exactly what that meant. It's basically a death sentence and even if you amputate the animal usually doesn't live many years longer.  It was an outside cat ,and a buddist nun had named her "mimi".

The mood in my house was sad today because my mom brought the cat in to be put to sleep.  It was fast though, but I wanted to get her leg removed and still keep her.  She was so loving.  She was such a beautiful cat, and she looked like a cougar.   She was very friendly and had the loudest purr and the sweetest face. It's not fair.

Now,  I am going to go see Batman, and I know at my age that life ends for many things as much as it begins.  I hate it, and I don't understand it.  Heath was just one example and so was Mimi.  Two really sweet souls that this earth doesn't have anymore. 

I have to say I really like them for the most part.  Sometimes it's like having a party in  your room, but no one is trashing your room or your house, and no one is driving home drunk.  If someone in my e-room is getting wasted, I know that the person is probably already at home and won't be killing anyone on the road.

By party, I don't mean getting wasted either.  I mean we all goof around and act like retards American Pie style sometimes, and it's hilarious.  I realize that a lot of you might not like who you go to school with or the kids in the neighborhood, so finding someone you like to e-hang out with on the internet is pretty decent.

I've met actually a lot of people that have my same kind of humor, and we all have a party together.  If you were in my room last night you know what I am talkin' 'bout. :D    Thanks for the laughs.

I wish more people could have parties like that instead of e-drama.  So if your trying to start drama or shit with me, don't bother.  Go find another room where the people are all into that shit.  

How many of you are in relationships that are long lasting and even really faithful?  Do you think sites like Myspace make it easier to cheat?  If yeah, does it make it easier to find out?  When are people gonna get it that people usually ALWAYS find out? 

Yeah, I was in a relationship in RL where I took it slow and didn't give anything up, and I then found out that all these Myspace "REAL SLUTS" were fucking him.  It's funny how I get called a slut when in reality I think girls that randomly fuck guys and especially guys they know are committed are the TRUE SLUTS!  yep.  It's funny how some of those girls would call me a slut too. Don't get me wrong here.  The guy is a complete slut and slut fucker too.

I try to keep any relationship I have off of the internet for reasons like, "OH, you're dating Kiki.  I hate her.  I think I'll fuck her boyfriend" kind of shit.

So this last experience has made me wonder if there are really long lasting faithful unions when younger.  I know there are some, but really how many people that are using internet social sites remain in long term committed relationships?  For weaker, used asswipes, it seems harder for them to navigate and fly faithful with all the fucktards out there and social sites easy access.

Someday I want a relationship with a guy that is funny, hot, sweet, serious about not fucking anyone else, and understands the nature of working towards something really good.  hahaha, that sounds like a resume or something.  Every experience I have just leads me to the one I will really love on all levels.

Right now, I hate that fucker and one thing people should know about me, at this point in my life, when I close a door, I close it really hard, and I don't look back.  So if you are going to be friends with me or more, you should be aware that if you blatantly or not so blatantly fuck with me, I won't tolerate it for very long, and I don't go back.  Forgiving is one thing.  Being a stupid fucker is entirely different.

OH, did I forget to mention what this creep told me he says, "I am going to RUIN you.  I am going to go kill myself now".  Here this fucker cheats on me in RL several times, I get pissed and say "fuck you"; I am never talking to you again" and he pulls the vengence with death crap.  Nope, it's not going to work this time.  You pull that shit with me, and I won't go crying "please don't kill youself; I won't leave".  Been there done that.  I won't be a puppet again.

This is a tell tale sign for you out there.  If your lover is contantly asking you if you cheated with someone from Myspace, maybe it's really that person that is cheating.  This guy recently starting asking me over and over again if I was actually cheating.  The thing is that HE was the one actually cheating.

I recently didn't go on a date with a guy I met at the new Whole Foods.  I had some classes with him.  He's a cutie,but I didn't go.  So, I basically was beng "kept" in one place while my bf was having his "cake and eating it too" kind of thing.  I could have gone on a date with a guy that would have actually taken me out for a change.  hahaha.  Live and learn.  I am done with learning for awhile.  Just want to live ;]

Hey,

I've been really busy lately, and summer hasn't really felt like summer this year. The thing is is when you are working on a business, you have so many little things to consider that take up so much time.  I want to get everything done NOW, but it just doesn't always work that way. 

I am really excited about the tee-shirts coming out.  They are just about to be made.   I know you guys will let me know what you think. hahaha.  The question that it basically came down to was simple, "Would I wear these, and would I ENJOY wearing them.  Hell yeah!  I am just trying to figure out if I should bling them a little here and there.  It makes more work and the tees are really hot on their own. We'll see.

So yeah, my summer has been more work than parties/play.  I did have some time to go shopping the other day, and I found a BJ dress that I really liked.  Betsey is having a buy one get one free sale on dresses where I live so I was able to find something.  I'm not a huge fan of her dresses right now.  They're really cute and sort of 50's-70's style, but it's not for me, BUT  I did find a not so girly black eyelet dress I like.  It's short and not foofy.  I call it my "nightmare before Christmas" dress.  I do love her accessories and bags though.

I found some knitted dresses at this either euro store or south american store.  The name was scribbled in cursive so I don't even know what the place was called.  It's an orange sherbert knitted, fitted dress.  Yeah, orange, and it's knit.  It makes me look like a snake except for a little frill on the bottom.  If you have that "s" curve then it's the cutest dress. I never thought of wearing a knit dress especially in summer, but this one has a racer type back and just fits me right.   I didn't think I would like the orange, but when I saw it on, it actually looked really good.

I didn't do anything spectuuuckular on the fourth this year.  Just watched some getto fireworks in the neighborhood and ate some so-so chinese food. I can't believe it's what, July 8 already.  See you in two days  ;]